Some "friend"...

I know you will read this and I want to tell you since you didnt give me a chance to even respond to your incredibly rude and unwarranted email I will say it here for the whole world to read.

You are a mean and unchristian woman. You speak of scriptures and respecting people and loving others and do the complete opposit. You are a total bitch and Im so glad you are out of my life because YOU were making matter worse by your unkind and inconsiderate words. You do not think before you speak!!! Do not sit there and tell me you are my friend and defend everything you said on facebook as you being a "friend" and then email me with whats below. You are a walking contradiction. You are a coward. You are a hypocrite. You know you were in the wrong for being so rude and inconsiderate. If your friends saw the shit you posted, Im pretty sure they would agree. All I wanted was an apology. Others said they were sorry when I called them out in private but you took things public so thats where it stayed. You are so dense that you missed the whole point of what others were telling you. Shut up and listen for once!

I tried to be nice and tell you I just needed a break. Not because I didnt want to be your friend but because I needed to take a time out to look at things from a different point of view. I was honest and you didnt like it. You can say all the mean and nasty stuff that you want. It just shows how insincere you were about our "friendship". And throwing in my "contradictions" shows me that you obviously are immature and dont know how to keep your mouth shut and jump to conclusions. I NEVER lied to you about seeking help. Ive been in contact with 2 grief groups that meet twice a month in Prince William. I missed Septembers meetings. So you can shove that one.

You call me a shark. Takes one to know one. I had NEVER done or said anything to you to make you hurt. You prey on people who are vulnerable and then when they cross you, or tell you what you dont want to hear, you attack. You are very unfair by trying to get the last word in like you did and blocking me. Im so angry at you and will not forgive you for the hurt you have caused me and for attacking me.

I hope you learn from this and change the way you approach sensitive subjects with other people you know and befriend in the future. And, I hope you grow up and take your own advice that you dish out to others. If it was you in my shoes and you had lost a baby, I would offer a shoulder and not lectures like you have done to me. You are not better then me and you never will be. God sees you and sees what you have done. Seek him out and his forgiveness. Ill pray for you. YOU need to seek help with the way you behave. You need it more then I do. You have no tact and no common sense.

You are not and NEVER will be a friend of mine. Good riddance!!

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" Raquel-Marie Newton September 30 at 5:07pm I think its best if we take a time out for a while. I wish you the very best and will contact you in the future when I have gotten past the worse of it all. I just dont think you see where everyone is coming from and even if you did mean well, you need to think before you speak when it is something this complicated. Youve been through it yourself as you say and I dont know why you would be so hard on someone who is going through the same thing and having the issues so fresh and still raw... you need to look back and remember the hurt and your feelings and how you would or did react to people saying the same things you have. Youre a good person but I need to draw a line. This isnt the first time youve said something that I took to offense and obviously didnt read my blog comment response because if you did you wouldnt be saying what you are. All the very best to you and your family."


"Valeta Gregg Kelley September 30 at 5:16pm Report Yes, i agree, I'm deleting you and blocking you, and please don't contact me in the future. You need help, your psychotic rants are simply a cause for attention. You've in the past lied about things like getting help and then making me look bad for suggesting it. My mother has said to swim with dolphins not sharks and you're definately a big jawed shark. I can see why others have deleted you. You read what you want to read, you contradict yourself..ie saying your husband is a over protective cheating man and then the next breath writing notes about what a great man he is. Seriously..I have the emails to prove them. What you have said to me, does not match up with others. You need to grow up for the sake of your family."

Cute!

I got this idea from Alyssa, who got it from http://leighashley.blogspot.com/...






{one} what is your biggest pet peeve?
        
 People who are two faced.

{two} what is your favorite dessert?

Nothing beats apple pie with ice cream!


{three} what is the first thing you notice about people?

I have no clue. My boobs?


{four} are you usually late, early or right on time?

Its a tie between right on time and late.


{five} have you ever fired a gun?

I own one and have fired it on many occassions.


{six} are you right-handed or left-handed?

Right.


{seven} which do you prefer: coke or pepsi?

Neither. Im a tea drinker.


{eight} do you dance crazy when no one is looking?

I dance crazy anytime in front of anyone.


{nine} what’s your favorite movie snack?

Whoppers.


{ten} do you scream on roller coasters?

Yes. Out of pure joy!





okay, now you go!

10 years :)

Well, at least today there is a happy cloud over my household. Today is the first day of Fall. I welcome this season with open arms!

Today is also the 10 year wedding anniversary of a very special couple. Cliff and myself!

We have been through so much in the last 10 years that its honestly beyond me how we have managed to not kill one another.

Im glad we are still together though. :) He has rescued me from myself so many times. I dont know what I would do without him.

I love you Cliff. Heres to 10 more decades with you!!

And the world keeps spinning...

I have a hard time watching newborns on TV, or seeing pregnant women in commercials. I have a hard time reading books about babies and magazines that offer pregnancy advice. I just want to sleep. Sleep away the pain in my heart. Thank God for Cliff... If he wasnt around to push me out of bed, I would sleep forever.

I was telling Cliff the other night, that a womans body and mind start to prepare itself for pregnancy and birth the moment you find out you are pregnant. And then POOF!, its all ripped away from you in the blink of an eye. It changes you forever. Anyone who has been there knows you will never be the same. You dont just forget and move on. Life moves on but a piece of your heart is lost in the world.

Everyone around me is getting pregnant and announcing their pregnancys. Im SO thrilled for them. I honestly am, but a little piece of me is sad. That should be me up there. I dont get all the congrats and praise. I dont get to have that natural high. - annnnn end pity party - NOW.

All I can do now is offer them love and pray for their health and their babies to be born beautiful and healthy!

Ive been keeping busy. Ive just about finished Haleighs box. Now Im sewing a cute 'sweet dreams' butterfly picture to put in it. I havent picked up a needle and thread in years! It feels good!

I miss you baby. There is a empty void where you once grew. Just a big empty void filled with sadness.

"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."

A dear friend of mine sent me this yesterday and it touched my heart deeply... Thank you Callie. Thank you so much!

I thought of you and closed my eyes,
And prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a Mother,
And I know I heard him say:
A mother has a baby,
This we know is true.
But, God, can you be a mother,
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can he replied,
With confidence in his voice.
I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for a day.
And some I send to fill your womb,
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish that I could show you,
What your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile,
With other children who say:
We go to earth and learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My mommy set me free.
I miss my mommy oh so much,
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are ok.
Your babies are here in My home,
They'll be at heavens gate for you.
So now you see what makes a mother.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you had so much of,
Right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother,
until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day,
And you'll know that you're the best one!
~Author Unknown

My angels box

Its still a work in progress and I need to take a photo of the right side of the box and the inside but you get an idea. :) You can click the photos to enlarge them!