Isnt she cute!!

I didnt think so either lol

Shes dead now. Cliff had to drown her in bug spray then smash her(what a horrible death!!).

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Time for a change...

So today Justin will be moving to Jades room for nap times. The way Im doing it, Im putting his swing in her room to let him get used to the enviorment over the next few weeks. Then Im taking away the swing for his nap times and putting him in his crib.

Nights are still going to be beside me. Im mentally not ready to have him sleep away from me at night lol

This is going to be a challenge. Its time though. He will be 6 months old in a couple days so things need to start changing a little around him.

Bitter sweet change.

Finally some good news...

Got the call Ive been waiting for. The house in NC is going into closing in 4 weeks. The people who are renting across the street from it put an offer in and we accepted. Alot of people passed on the house because we refuse to pay closing costs but its not our problem if they dont have the money.

So, Im crossing my fingers and saying a little prayer that this time it all goes smoother then last time!

Living with low expectations...

I'm beginning to learn to live with lower or no expectations of people, places and things. The less you expect from something or someone then the less you'll be hurt when things don't work out or when you get left behind.

I'm tired of being left out and ignored. Family and friends have rubbed me raw the last month. So raw that I've become numb. Which is a scary point for me. The last time I became numb like this I sunk into a deep hole. Self pity? Depression? Who knows. Who cares. Just lost joy in things. The only thing that kept me up and going was my kids. That's what's going to be my focus this time around.

Whatever. I'm having a bad PPD night. My feelings are hurt tonight but lucky for me I'm to shallow to care. NEXT!!!!!!

People are such sheep.

'Walking well' flood hospitals with -- or without -- flu symptoms

A runny nose. A cough. A sore throat. And even pork eaten a week ago. Hospitals like Sutter Delta Medical Center in Antioch, California, set up triage tents to handle overcrowding After a week of headlines about the H1N1 virus, or swine flu, many emergency rooms and hospitals are crammed with people, many of whom don't need to be there.The visits by the "worried well" have triggered concerns of overburdening the nation's hospitals and emergency departments, several health care professionals told CNN.This week, some hospitals saw record numbers of patients. A few emergency departments shut down to paramedics because of overcrowding. "We have had a lot of nervous patients with minimal respiratory tract symptoms," said Dr. Mark Bell, principal of Emergent Medical Associates, which operates 18 emergency departments in Southern California. "It has caused significant amount of delays in emergency care. They're all walking well." (CNN)

This is why I am pissed about how the whole SWINE FLU(yes I said it!) was originally handled and brought to the public attention! Thank you News media and Government for causing a mass hysteria among the American people!

Unless you have worked in an ER and know how fucking annoying it is to get a rush of idiots in, you can and never will fully understand the frustration behind disgruntle nurses, doctors and other health care professionals. Given, its no excuse for some of their behavior.

I give an exception to the rule of "DON'T COME IN BEFORE SEEING YOUR PRIMARY" to children. Don't take chances with your child if they are sick. I wouldn't with mine.

But grow adults... come on... seriously! Ive have a runny nose, cough and headache, what did I do? I went and made an appointment to see my doctor. Do I have swine flu???!!! NO! And neither do YOU! So get the hell out of the ER and go see your regular doctor and leave the ERs open for people who really need it!!! Morons!

K Im done. I read this and I just had to get it off my chest.