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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! Let me get that out. Lets see if I can write some more before I doze off again. Excuse the typos and run on sentences. Excuse the lame jokes and blah blah blah.

This has been the most insane few weeks of this year. I hope the last few weeks have found everyone in good health and your lives have been full and rich with many blessings!!!

First an update on Justin. He is fine. Perfect little devil. Never heard back from his hematologist so I'm assuming the test she re-ran on him came back okay.

Robbie is great. Freaking out about his SOL testing, which I personally as a mother am PISSED about. Seriously. My 9 year old should not be stressing a stupid test but focusing on learning and enjoying school! I'm not the only one who thinks this way. Parents are opting their kids out of the SOL testing. Its an option many parents don't know they have. Now you do :) Thanks to me. Yay me!

Jade is doing great, also. Well except for school. I think she will be held back this year. And we are all okay with it. She has a major disadvantage going for her - her age. She is a year younger then most her classmates. This makes it hard for her to be on the same learning level as the rest of her grade. We asked her if she is okay with it and she said she was. She understands. Hopefully we get a teacher this next year that will put more into her achieving instead of focusing on holding her back.

Cliff is good. He has been SUPER DUPER busy. He has taken on another project for work on top of what he is already doing so he is pretty swept up in work. Talked about the possibility of moving to Florida for a project down there. I'm all for it! LETS MOVE! SEE YA COLD WEATHER!!!

The house is coming along. Sort of. He has been busting his ass to get the flower beds mulched and stuff planted. Butterfly garden wasn't done before Haleigh's due date this past Saturday but that's this weekends project. Its going to be perfect when its done. We have butterfly attracting flowers all picked out and waiting to be planted.

Well, now we get to me. We all know how much I hate talking about me. ;)

Back in March I started not feeling too good. I was tired and cranky and just feeling all together blah. That lead to questions which lead to a pee stick which lead to a big fat + (POSITIVE). It took us by surprise. We had agreed that we were done trying to have more kids. I was done after my chemical pregnancy/2nd loss in February. It was just too emotionally draining for me to even want to get pregnant again only to be let down.

Well, this was a blessing. Its taken some time to get use to because of the loss of the baby back in September. Its been a very trying time for us the last few weeks. Its been hard to invest in a pregnancy that can have a tragic end like the previous 2. Its unknown and its so very scary. We kept it on the hush for a while. We didn't want to get everyone all excited only to be bearer of bad news again if something was to go wrong. We finally told his mom last night. We felt it was safe with all the stuff thats been going on with my health.

Thats my next topic. If you have been or are pregnant and have never had to endure morning sickness, FEEL VERY, VERY BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!! Every single one of my pregnancies(except with Haleigh, which was the first sign something was wrong) have lead to one thing: Hyperemesis gravidarum (<~ you can find info on it if you click here) and hospital stays. It starts for me around 6 weeks and I'm doomed from then till I give birth. I had my first OB appointment last Monday and I was feeling yucky but it was manageable. I was tired and slept most of my days away to keep the puking to a minimal. Its no fun being in bed 75% of the day. I was puking up stuff but was able to hold things down. We got to see our little rainbow baby on a super ancient ultrasound machine and I wept when I saw the little flicker of my sweet babies heartbeat on the screen. There was no denying that that little baby growing inside me was very much alive and a week younger then I had thought! So at 6 weeks and 6 days, my little rainbow baby had a strong and beautiful heartbeat!!!

SAY HI TO RAINBOW BABY!!!! Purple circle between the two X's is rainbow baby! Its a HORRIBLE first photo!!! But like I said, the machine was about as old as my grandma. I didn't care. I saw what I needed to see!!!

Seems that the loss in February threw my ovulation off so when I thought we were safe, we were playing with fire. And what I thought was my monthly in February was really me miscarrying again.

A day or so after we had our first appointment, hell broke loose. My throwing up became a constant thing. Nothing was staying down. I was stuck on my death bed for 3 days before Cliff said enough was enough. The doctors had put me on Zofran, Reglan and Promethazine (all which makes me VERY sleepy!!!). All at the same time. PILLS DO NOT WORK ON A WOMAN WHO CANT EVEN KEEP A TABLESPOON OF WATER DOWN!! So Monday, Cliff called the doctor for me and told them they need to do something. He took me to the ER where I broke down crying everytime I saw someone with a water bottle. Ive never wanted water so badly in all my life. Like I would literally force myself to drink water only to throw it up 2 seconds later but I needed to taste its coldness!!! I was desperate!!!! I stayed there and got re-juiced and some IV meds. I felt like a million bucks but I told the doctor I needed to be set up with a portable IV machine. She said she would talk to my OB/GYNs office and see what they say. She spoke to the doc on call and it was the doctor I HATE HATE HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATE!!!! This man never once came to see me and has NO clue of my past history with this. It was left to him to say I didnt need to be sent home with anything other then what I got. JERK!!! I sat there and looked the ER doc in the face and said I thought it was BS and that I would be back because they werent listening to me.

I didnt know at the time but Cliff was already at my OBs office working out details to have a home-care nurse come in and help me with a portable Zofran machine. Thank god for Cliff. This man took the day off to take care of everything for me including the kids who are off for spring break. So starting in the next day or so, Ill be hooked up to a little cell phone sized machine that pumps meds into my body for as long as I need it. I have to function so this is my last resort. Taking on Hyperemesis and 3 kids is no joke.

Ive lost 15lbs since last Monday. That's how serious this is. If mama isn't getting any nutrients, neither is baby. So I take this VERY serious. Its not the diet I had in mind when I said I wanted to lose weight a couple months ago!!

So there you have it.

Oh and just to let everyone know, I have a horrible attitude now. So if you piss me off enough be prepared to be disowned. You've been warned. I'm pregnant and hormonal which makes me very not nice but it only shows IF you make me angry. Or cry. Don't make me cry. You will not like me anymore.Oh and dont ask me if this is our last baby or tell me that I should know better then to get pregnant again because of how sick I get. I didnt ask for this. But I do love the little babies that come out of it all. And I would do it a billion times over if I could.

We're having a rainbow baby!!!! Sometime between Thanksgiving and December 6th!!!! EEK!!!